Sometimes commitment just makes you feel weirdly not known. So you commit to God, you accept all the good He brought you, and believe me, it is very good, but then all the sudden you realize how lame you are, and how you will never be up to the perfect Jesus “expectations”. Ok, we seek to be like Him, but let’s face it, will never be like Him, and sometimes it’s truly hard to believe He can be it through me. Looks like I always have to find something to complain, and now what? The goodness of God, by willing to take His own son down to save me is not the most smart thing, cause I don’t seem to have a way out… sometimes just looks it you be easier to have a punishment for the things we’ve done wrong, and then we would look back and see all that as a solved matter! As if….
At least could wish for…
